My pastor asked us today : “Do you love God?” And the answer that came to my mind was?NO.
Like it or not, that’s the truth. That answer is even more obvious when I feel lukewarm about God.
But ask me this question any other day and I would still hem and haw with my answer. I’m almost ashamed to say, I’m not sure if I love God.
Some days I find myself burning with intensity for Him. Those were times my heart was so full of Him. Filled to the brim. Overflowing.
Is that love? I’m not certain. Those intense feelings don’t last though. There were weeks when I didn’t want to keep company with Him, preferring to avoid Him on most days.
But despite being fickle about how I feel about God, I know for certain that He loves me.
Once, someone told me that God is selective about who He loves at a time I was going through a bad patch.
Yet, I remember refuting aloud that I’m very sure my Abba God loves me. That was never a doubt no matter how I feel toward Him. And not too long after that, He came through in a big way for me.
Since then, I realized it’s not important if I love God. It’s more important for me to know that He loves me.
You see, my love for God wavers from day to day. But His love for me never falters. Not even when I am angry with Him. So focusing on how much God loves me makes me less self-centered and takes a big load off me. I wouldn’t even be surprised if God considers my belief in His love as faith.
If you’re someone struggling to love God, perhaps it’s time to change your perspective.
God is saying to you: I’ve never quit loving you and never will. Expect love, love, and more love!
Instead of trying to love God with all your might, just focus on how much He loves you. Let that becomes a truth that’ll be ingrained in your head and etched on your heart.